So. To clarify, I'm doing a lot better than when I had needed to seek therapy. Previous drunken ramblings were mostly drunken ramblings.
That said, the whole of my social circle that I carved out here in Amakusa is uprooting itself. I'm happy that everyone is going off to make their futures and I think everyone made the right choices for themselves, but that said I'm pretty down that all my friends are leaving. Fortunately the ones closest to me are people I will likely see again. Still, it is sad to see them folks go.
Going on Vacation in 36 hours back to New Mexico. Couldn't come at a better time. Now, more than ever, I need to be reminded why I left.
After that, starting on September 1st, I will drop off the face of the planet as far as you all is concerned. I spend too much time thinking in English, and my Japanese is not improving at the pace I'd like it to, so I'm going the total immersion route. I don't know how long I will (can?) keep it up, but hopefully doing this will let me leave here satisfied with my own progress.