I recently listened to a lot of songs I haven't listened to in a long, long time. Most of them videogame OSTs. A lot of nostalgia brought back, but also a lot of...
god, what the fuck am I doing with my time here? I can read most things fine (Heisig, baby), but... my listening and speaking skills in Japanese are wholly subpar. What I'd expect to have upon COMING to the country, not being in the midst of my time here.
It's put me in a really depressive mood. Like, I go out when I can, try to talk to Japanese people when I go out, but maybe I need to step it up. Maybe I need to stop reading so much in English when I'm relaxing, try to immerse myself in Japanese. But then again, I do want to keep writing, which has been coming along more.
I don't even know what I'm rambling about. Maybe I'm just drunk. Still, you'd think I'd be able to understand more than half of what's being sung in these songs after being here two years. Maybe I'm just wasting my time.
God
just
Fuck you Meeple.
Fuck
you
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk