So after 3 months of hell due to unexpected expenses... overcharged medical fees, surprise car repair bills, unfortunate traffic ticket, reduced hours in my job... I thought I was finally getting passed the hard part. I found a better job, managed to fix some of the medical fees, got some extra flexibility on some of my bills for the month, worked some extra hours at my part time job. I thought I was really gonna be able to get my savings back that had been nearly wiped out. And then my roommate told me that my current living arrangements weren't going to last for much longer and I have maybe 4 months to find something else. And last week I just started my new job and I have to redo a bunch of training that I already did at my last job, slowing down my chances for progressing quickly there. And then two days ago, my car broke down in the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night.
It blew a rod and busted a hole in the block, making it completely unsalvageable. I had to pay for a $100 taxi ride home, and then towing fees, and then junking fees. I have to finance a new car and put myself into debt for much longer than the four months of 'stability' I have left, leaving me trapped in this place and unable to travel or find a better place to work or live.
I also had the unfortunate experience of finally having to tell my mother about my bisexuality. Despite my impression that she had basically always known and wouldn't care, she was actually very shocked and said she felt awkward and wished she could tell me to just keep it secret and that she wouldn't tell anyone else in the family, but not to worry she would still help me look for a car. I guess it could be worse, but I still felt awful. Additionally, when she called around to my relatives to see if anyone could help, my Catholic rich uncle (my family's Italian, of course I have one of those) started asking about my financial situation and judged that I didn't have a good enough set of jobs and that my mom needed to make me 'get my act together', so I have double-familial-disappointment coming at me, despite making more money than my mother. It gets worse because apparently he is now lording my decision from years ago over me when he offered to help pay for me to get a Master's degree but I had been offered the job with the JET Programme so I wanted to start working in Japan instead almost five years ago.
Yes, Uncle Tony, in hindsight it seems obvious that a record-breaking earthquake would hit Japan and influence my decision to give up that well-paying job and return to the economy-ruined US where I got another amazing job that eventually didn't last long-term either so now I'm stuck in a only-slightly-better-than-entry-level job and have fallen on hard times all because I didn't get a Master's degree in Psychology so I could do... what exactly? I guess a Master's degree and not living in a foreign country would have been beneficial if I had found a steady job five years ago, but it's really no guarantee that I could have found some perfect high-paying dream job that you deem 'appropriate for the family'. It's easy to disapprove, but I notice he offers no suggestions.
Argh. I don't have time for this, I have to find a car and go to work. And somehow find a better job. And a place to live nearby in four months...
